Please don't tell me that you're here for me if you're just gonna ask me to let it go. How the fuck are you my bestfriend if you give me 0 emotional support? Every single time I hint I want to talk about something I need you I want you to ask me about it. Ask me a few times because I desperately need reassurance that you're ready to listen to me that you're going to be there for me help me get through it help me deal with my emotions. Instead telling me to just let it go and that there is no point in thinking about it is not helping even one bit. I'm sitting on the other side with a painful lump in my throat with tears threatening to spill out of my eyes with a volcano of emotions ready to erupt anytime and then all I get is let it go don't think about and then carrying the conversation like you did not just notice there was something wrong with me is not a relationship. If this is what you're gonna do in the first place why tell me that you'll be there to listen? When I cut myself because I was hurting when I burst into tears because I wouldn't deal with the war that was raging between my heart and my mind why did you tell me that all of that could have been avoided if I had talked to when that was just a lie? Vent to me? Talk to me? Why are you shutting me out? Because you've never ever made me feel like I could talk to you that you would give me the support that I need. Is it so hard to just listen and say I know it's hard don't worry I'm here for you you're not alone. Instead you make a joke about it and brush it aside like it's nothing. Why do you claim me to be special when you're actions don't even reach the standard of ordinary? I don't need you to tell that trust issues are common and that it's nothing serious. I need you to tell me it's okay to have them. I need reassurance.Or am I wrong? Do I expect too much? Am I the problem? Are you sick of me? What have I done to make you sick of me? Is the happy mask I put on finally cracking and do you detest the person behind? The person with scars that are healing? The person who has other emotions than happiness? Is that what this is really all about?I'm open to anyone who can tell me if I'm wrong or right to feel this way please tell me honestly if I'm doing anything wrong.