I wonder when will I die.
I'm too tired, I wish i can just forget everything.
I feel like I'm going mad.
I want to die already but I don't wanna kill myself though. I just want it to look natural so my parents won't grieve too much. How I wish I could just simply dissappear from the face of earth.
This darkness borne inside of me is consuming all things that keeps me alive.
But, well, I really want to die that i even hope i have a lot of money so that i can just assasinate myself. I always feel that death is the only thing to liberate myself from this shackles. Though, don't get me wrong, I don't have any traumatic past or stories just that I'm too tired of this monotonous life. I know everyone had their own problem I don't want to add up. I just want to vent a little 'cause if I don't i don't know what would happen to my smiling facade.