I don't know what I'm gonna write now.
I feel ugly, sad, worthless, ignored, not needed, extra, a mistake. People say god is with you. I don't see him, anywhere. I'm stressed, about every single thing. I'm afraid, of everything. I'm tired, so much that I feel that maybe my limbs wouldn't move anymore. I feel lonely. Because everyone is around me. If I was really lonely, meaning that if really no one was around me, maybe then it would be better. But I am just so tired of being that good girl for everyone in this fucking world except myself. I want to be excepted as I am, as I want to be. I am tired of hiding my pain. I want to show it. But I can't. Because I know, if I do, I will be gifted with more pain. That's why I remain silent.
Not everyone is found in noise.
Some are found in silence........