I miss you. I don't think you would even know that I do. I never told you how important you were to me, or how often I thought about you, or that I thought I loved you. I still think I did. I will never forget how you made me feel. Like I wasn't invisible. When people at school would give me a hard day, and then I would get to work a shift with you at the store I felt better. I knew that you would make me laugh and ask me about my day and not accept my "I'm fine" answers. I remember the night at work when you got off before me and came through my line to check out. You were buying flowers for your girlfriend at the time. She was awful, but you loved her so I let that go. Somehow it came up that I had never gotten flowers from anyone before. You acted surprised. When I got off work a couple hours later and walked to my car I noticed it on my windshield. One single flower. A single flower that you snipped off the boquet that you bought for your girlfriend just resting under the windshield wiper on my car. I thanked you for it on messenger I think. I should have thanked you a thousand times. You made my night. To this day, no one has done anything for me remotely close to that. I wish I had saved that flower. I feel like I did, but I can't remember where it is. I remember that day on the beach. You know... that day. We were fishing and then went to hang out at the Holiday Inn pool. I had gotten a little drunk and decided to go talk to some random guys on the beach. So stupid. I was just trying to get your attention. Maybe I didn't know that then, but I know it now. Well I was sitting on the rail on the boardwalk ramp that takes you from the beach to the pool. Everyone was standing around, all the people we came with. We decided to start walking towards the pool. I was still sitting there. The others walked away, so did you. But then you stopped and turned around like you were waiting for me. You walked back towards me and offered me your hand to help me down from the rail. I took your hand, and as I hopped down I realized that we were standing very close. I got embarassed and looked down at the ground so you wouldn't notice. We both started walking. You were about 7 or 8 feet in front of me when you turned around again suddenly and walked straight back at me. You grabbed my face with both of your hands and said "Just so this can happen once." Then you kissed me. The best kiss of my life. Perfect. And when you pulled away I was so in shock that I said "Is this real life?" Ughhhh why did I say that. You laughed a little and we went back to the pool to join the others. The next day at work, you teased me for saying that. I didn't mind. I liked to hear you talk about it, because it reminded me that it really did happen. Now I don't know if that kiss meant anything to you, but it meant everything to me. Thank you for that. I want you to know that if I could go back in time, I would grab you and pull you closer and make it a longer kiss. I would make it harder for you to forget me. I remember when you would invite me down to the dock after work to talk. We would sit by the pavillions and just talk and smoke cigarettes. You would tell me all the stuff your then ex-girlfriend put you through, and I just wanted to hug you. I should have hugged you more. I wanted to believe you hung out with me because you liked me, but I'm still not sure. It's ok if it was because you felt sorry for me. I think I would have hung out with you even if I knew you were just dared to do it. I loved your company. I loved you. I still love you. I remember when you invited me to a little party at someone's house. I had never been invited to a party. I felt accepted. Then I played super smash bros and won against everyone while I was drunk. You made me feel good about it. Thanks for including me. It made a differemce in my confidence. I remember the last time I saw you. It makes me cry so hard. I was working at a pizza place. We were so busy, and I had just gotten back from a delivery. I was about to go out on another one actually. Then I saw you! You were in the store and when you saw me you said "hey!" The look on your face was like you wanted to come hug me. I wanted to hug you too. My manager was in the kitchen and I didn't want to get in trouble. I should have just hugged you anyways. The phone rang and I had to answer it. Then you left while I was on the phone. You waved at me and mouthed that you had to go. I wanted to cry. I thought I would try to message you later. I'm not sure if I did. I should have. I just needed to get this off my chest. I hope you are in a place now where you can feel my love, and finally know exactly what you meant to me. I love you. I will miss you forever.