I am currently 15 years old. The topper of my school wants to be an IAS officer and my entire family wants me to do that too and always pressurizes me about that. But. I want to be a theoretical physicist and I swear I am hella passionate about it and can do anything for physics. But my parents want me to take economics and fulfill their dreams. When I heard that the topper wanted to be an IAS officer my heart shattered into a million pieces and I started doubting my dreams and thought that maybe I was foolish about thinking to pursue theoretical physics. I just cannot even explain this pain that I am feeling now. I have even considered suicide because I already have a low self esteem and so many other problems to deal with but wherever I see I only see things as a danger.