They all think they know me, But i always end up surprising them. Sometimes i feel like i don't even know my damn self. I'm sad and depressed like 79% of the time. I find it so fucking hard to socialise and maintain the friendship i have with my friends. A whole lot of people call me their friend but i don't even remember existence. I have have people who are willing to be there for me but i always feel like I'm drowning in the middle of the pacific ocean with no one to help me. I'm screaming and begging for help but I've been forgotten. Nobody understands me. I just wish i can find someone to lean on, someone to pull me out from the water drowning me. Someone i can be transparent to. But sometimes wishes never come true. Nobody sees me.