i just moved to Cornwall ontario and im a teenager. im 13 and im looking for ways i can get drugs, my life is a mess and i want to kill myself, i attempted to yesterday i drank a litre of mouthwash and got alcohol poisoning, some guy found me passed out on the streets and called 911. after i got a bit better in the hospital they drove me to cheo in Ottawa, which is a children's hospital, i waited 5 hours for a doctor to come talk to me, i talked to her and she totally brushed off my childhood trauma of my dad being a abusive pedophile and everyone in the house knowing and not doing anything, and my mom being abusive and force feeding me because her friends jokingly asked her why i was so skinny and if she even feeds me, and me getting raped by my grandma's maid and my biological dad,, she brushed off all that and even my suicide attempt, i asked her if she could give me medication cuz i just wanna feel a bit happy, and she said "well if ur feeling worse then i can give u medication", like lady i tried to fucking kill myself, are u fucking stupid, my life is on the line.and my mom, she's not taking this seriously, she thinks im doing this to look cool or something. anyways, i don't what to do ive tried 5 therapists and i hate all of them.so, I don't know when but ill die any day and getting high is the thing i wanna experience before i die. where can a 13 year old get drugs, i could ask the school druggie (i go to saint lawrence) but I don't think he will and I'm too shy to ask anyway. any way i can get drugs?