i feel so alone and stupid and every other dumb thing. i want to tell him everything but he already has so many problems he has to face. here i am doing nothing about it, doing nothing to comfort him, simply because i don't know what to do. i wanna tell him i'm tired, i'm burned out, i need to cry but i just can't when he's here bottling up everything and working his hardest. compared to him, i'm nothing. i want to work hard and do the best i can without thinking about it but there's little to no motivation. i want to tell him everything but i can't just yet. or maybe i just can't.