I have no one to talk to, but I wish to share this with someone. I feel my life is on the edge of disaster. I'm in my mid twenties, I'm failing at university, will be asked to leave at the end of this year. I'm gay, my only boyfriend I've ever had (of 5 years, who I loved dearly) broke up with me. Fairly so, I am a loser and holding him back. I got arrested for shoplifting food, so I'm officially a criminal. I don't know what to do. My family does not know about these things. They are poor and gave everything they had for me in the hope that I will achieve something. Instead in return I offer them shame. I feel completely alone, there is no one that I trust. Life is just too difficult at this moment.

I have no one to talk to, but I wish to share this with someone. I feel my life is on the edge of disaster. I'm in my mid twenties, I'm failing at university, will be asked to leave at the end of this year. I'm gay, my only boyfriend I've ever had (of 5 years, who I loved dearly)  broke up with me. Fairly so, I am a loser and holding him back. I got arrested for shoplifting food, so I'm officially a criminal. I don't know what to do. My family does not know about these things. They are poor and gave everything they had for me in the hope that I will achieve something. Instead in return I offer them shame. I feel completely alone, there is no one that I trust. Life is just too difficult at this moment.

I have a very similar situation to yours, 24, ended 6 yr relationship, no friends, poor back ground, shoplifting. But found this video and its helping alot, so I hope it can help you to. Help you rebuild what you think is lost, or start something new. :) I'll be reading. https://youtu.be/GWIET65k8Eg

I have a very similar situation to yours, 24, ended 6 yr relationship, no friends, poor back ground, shoplifting. But found this video and its helping alot, so I hope it can help you to. Help you rebuild what you think is lost, or start something new. :) I'll be reading.https://youtu.be/GWIET65k8Eg 

Re: Edge of disaster

Us men have the hardest societal expectations placed on us. A man’s worth is seen as what he brings to society while a woman is valuable no matter what. If it’s any consolation, your story matters to me. In about 60 years, you’ll be dead. Anyone’s perceptions of you will be gone. Any of your deeds will be gone with death. Death isn’t scary, but it comes for all of us, the greatest equalizer. What makes life precious is that it ends. Please don’t make that day any sooner. Think of all the men out there who are looking for you? Just do whatever the fuck makes you happy. Might as well. You want to stay in university? Do it. You want to leave? Do it. It may seem like your family’s opinions matter, but in the face of an eventual death, is it? Just love and live with a passion.

Us men have the hardest societal expectations placed on us. A man’s worth is seen as what he brings to society while a woman is valuable no matter what. If it’s any consolation, your story matters to me. In about 60 years, you’ll be dead. Anyone’s perceptions of you will be gone. Any of your deeds will be gone with death. Death isn’t scary, but it comes for all of us, the greatest equalizer. What makes life precious is that it ends. Please don’t make that day any sooner. Think of all the men out there who are looking for you? Just do whatever the fuck makes you happy. Might as well. You want to stay in university? Do it. You want to leave? Do it. It may seem like your family’s opinions matter, but in the face of an eventual death, is it? Just love and live with a passion.