It's ok to cry. I'm feel depressed lately. I thought i have my family and friends but i was wrong.
They have me, but i have who? No one.
There is a time when i feel gross with myself, feeling so down, sad, anxiety and all...
I called my them, i mean my BEST friend not bestfriend.
I called them and ask am i too cruel? Am i too ego?
Yes, i can't hold my tears from falling down.
They thought i was joking around when i ask stuff like that. I ended the call.
The stupid me thought that they will call me back, or maybe send me a message if i okay or not...
I'M SO DUMB. SOOOO DUMB
I'm in my deep thinking after calling them, i called them in a wrong time or this what i deserve?
I become more depress over it and crying all night. Listened to a song, cry, and yes I'm thinking about that.
You all knew what was that.
If some of you read this, you will said that why im so obsses with my friends, why i didnt get my family and blah blah
i live with my grandparents when i was 8, and my brother's age 2.
Same, i thought living with grandparents was the best thing ever until horrible things happened.
Should i be honest here? since all of us are anonynous. I don't know