As a 20 year old male, I am not allowed to show any emotions. My dad is a police man so imagine that he's very manly. Every single day i wake up, i wear this masks that hides up my true emotions. The fear of being judged as weak is always there. Why out of all sperms i survived. Sometimes i see my self just standing on the edge on top of our house and just jump head first. I cant talk to no one in this household as we are not close due to the fact that we were once a broken family. Everyday i end up wishing that this be day i die. I only experience genuine happiness whenever with im my best friend but i cannot always rely on him. I wish that next day would be my last day.