I wish I had somebody who genuinely and unconditionally loved me. A friend, a parent or anybody. I am 13 and so damn exhausted of not having anybody to talk to, I don't reach out to people in fear that they would not want to do anything with me, might confirm my insecurities, might reject me. I wish I had a safe haven where I could go and think in peace but my house is so crowded that the best I can do is wait for the night to cry in my pillow. I am reaching out to anonymous people for attention and help. I really am pathetic. People say when you are feeling down, focus on the good aspects of life. What if that doesn't work? What if I still feel like a loser, a waste of time? People say when you get turned down for an activity or anything, focus on your talents. What if I am searching for a talent? What if I am searching for something to be proud of? Something that defines me? I am a loser who is going to be alone and a nothing for the rest of her life. And I wish I had the determination and focus to do something about it. I wish... I wish... I wish... that's is all my life is. A box where I store my wishes and moan about everything wrong in my life. I have a list of things I want to do in my life before I die. But I don't think I could ever complete it. Because in the end it is a wish too and when do wishes ever come true?

I wish I had somebody who genuinely and unconditionally loved me. A friend, a parent or anybody. I am 13 and so damn exhausted of not having anybody to talk to, I don't reach out to people in fear that they would not want to do anything with me, might confirm my insecurities, might reject me. I wish I had a safe haven where I could go and think in peace but my house is so crowded that the best I can do is wait for the night to cry in my pillow. I am reaching out to anonymous people for attention and help. I really am pathetic. People say when you are feeling down, focus on the good aspects of life. What if that doesn't work? What if I still feel like a loser, a waste of time? People say when you get turned down for an activity or anything, focus on your talents. What if I am searching for a talent? What if I am searching for something to be proud of? Something that defines me? I am a loser who is going to be alone and a nothing for the rest of her life. And I wish I had the determination and focus to do something about it. I wish... I wish... I wish... that's is all my life is. A box where I store my wishes and moan about everything wrong in my life. I have a list of things I want to do in my life before I die. But I don't think I could ever complete it. Because in the end it is a wish too and when do wishes ever come true?

this is my second time writing this to you because the first time i vented my own feelings too much. i’ll try again. i’m bad at wording or even reassuring anyone so apologies but you’re only 13 right? that person who loves you unconditionally will come one day i guarantee. you are worthy of love believe me. i know at the moment you feel as though there isn’t anybody who understands you, because i felt the same way too. you’re scared of telling people how you feel because you don’t want them too see you any different to how you are now. you don’t know how to say how you feel and express yourself in a way that they would get. i get you. i’m glad i found this website because i think you and i have a lot in common. you can’t seem to focus on work that is important and you worry that if you don’t do it you’ll fail right? and the more you worry the less work you do and it all piles up. you’re not pathetic. i know you’re not. if you worry too much about how green the grass is on the other side you’re failing to take care of the grass you’re currently stood on. you can speak your worries to me , i’m sorry i’m bad at making people feel better haha but if you want to keep talking about this you could message me on instagram @esmeholesocks (excuse the name) or still on here if u want. you are worthy of love :)

this is my second time writing this to you because the first time i vented my own feelings too much. i’ll try again. i’m bad at wording or even reassuring anyone so apologies but you’re only 13 right? that person who loves you unconditionally will come one day i guarantee. you are worthy of love believe me. i know at the moment you feel as though there isn’t anybody who understands you, because i felt the same way too. you’re scared of telling people how you feel because you don’t want them too see you any different to how you are now. you don’t know how to say how you feel and express yourself in a way that they would get. i get you. i’m glad i found this website because i think you and i have a lot in common. you can’t seem to focus on work that is important and you worry that if you don’t do it you’ll fail right? and the more you worry the less work you do and it all piles up. you’re not pathetic. i know you’re not. if you worry too much about how green the grass is on the other side you’re failing to take care of the grass you’re currently stood on. you can speak your worries to me , i’m sorry i’m bad at making people feel better haha but if you want to keep talking about this you could message me on instagram @esmeholesocks (excuse the name) or still on here if u want. you are worthy of love :) 

Re: Emotionally Confused

I don't mind listening to you went because honestly I get this comfort by listening to other people's problem. I think it is because it helps me feel better about myself or maybe because I feel like that is what I would like somebody to do for me. For your Instagram ID thank you so much but remember no friends and afraid of being of judged. So I would prefer to keep myself anonymous, open to any suggestions where we could talk without feeling afraid of discovery. But because as mentioned in my complains, I am pathetic, I won't say no.

I don't mind listening to you went because honestly I get this comfort by listening to other people's problem. I think it is because it helps me feel better about myself or maybe because I feel like that is what I would like somebody to do for me. For your Instagram ID thank you so much but remember no friends and afraid of being of judged. So I would prefer to keep myself anonymous, open to any suggestions where we could talk without feeling afraid of discovery. But because as mentioned in my complains, I am pathetic, I won't say no.

The last reply I sent for emotionally confused was for the person who answered to my article and gave me her Instagram.

The last reply I sent for emotionally confused was for the person who answered to my article and gave me her Instagram.

Re: Re: Emotionally Confused

ah, that’s good. i felt self conscious that i was rambling too much so your reply is reassuring. that’s fine, we can communicate on here still if that’s what you want. i completely understand that you wish to stay anonymous :) i don’t really respond to people’s concerns on here that often but i feel that i relate more to your issue because it’s similar to mine. if you still want to talk about this and wish to ask questions i will try my best to reply asap.

ah, that’s good. i felt self conscious that i was rambling too much so your reply is reassuring. that’s fine, we can communicate on here still if that’s what you want. i completely understand that you wish to stay anonymous :) i don’t really respond to people’s concerns on here that often but i feel that i relate more to your issue because it’s similar to mine. if you still want to talk about this and wish to ask questions i will try my best to reply asap.  