Hi,I am confused and lonely. I feel emotions for a very short period of time. I feel like an empty shell. I took up reading books to fill my thoughts and emotions. I am a loser in life who is good for nothing. I am not good at a single thing. I read books so that I can experience emotions but I feel like that is the only reason I read books; to fill up the empty hole in my life. I sometimes think of suicide but I always chicken out.I am a selfish b****. I constantly feel like I have no one to talk to. I keep my emotions bottled up inside me but I can feel them bursting to get out. I want to talk to my father about how frustrated I feel, but then I think about how awkward it would be when I finally open my mouth and he thinks of me as a dramtic self-obsessed wretch. I wish I had enough guts to commit suicide or at least inflict self-harm.Also, now I feel like a screwup for feeling like this when thwre are people who are obviously in much more dire need of this website. On top of that I am ashamed of myself for goinf to anonymous websites for comfort over my not-so-bad life. Thanks VIGYAA for letting me vent.