Why do I feel this emptiness? A constant pain in the chest through stomach! I have no reason to be sad really. I am doing well in life I guess, I am healthy, good at whatever I am doing, everyone is so nice to me, have some real good friends, though I cant see them due to this COVID but have meet with some new real good people. So I should be well and happy, But somehow, I am not.Yesterday, I cried. Without a reason. Tears were falling out of my eyes and the ache in the chest increased and I locked myself in the room and sat there and fall asleep after sometime..I don't really know when the stupid weird feeling started, but it has been here for more than a weak. What I find out is reading a book helps, It does not completely eliminate the pain but it keeps the pain at a constant, which after sometime feels natural(!). I tried to talked to my friend but have no idea what to say. I am male, 24 years, So this would be very awkward.3 days earlier, I saw some puppies beside the road. I spend some time with them and I felt Happy(!? well, more happy than I am right now). I wanted to bring them home, But for reasons, I can't. Hey, Thanks for reading this weird mumbling. If you have any suggestion on how can I stop this, Please please write down.