This time last year I told myself, 'you have to give your marriage another try'. I had found, repeatedly, that my husband had been sexting other women. Each time I forgave and tried to forget. Each time my trust in him was shredded and whenever I gained a little back for him he'd do it again. The last time it happened I felt something break inside me.
Now I'm 30, we've been married for 4 years (together for 10), and I'm staring into the void. I feel love for this man but I'm no longer attracted to him. We have sex maybe once or twice a month and it's become something I just get done to keep him happy.
Now he wants children and although my biological clock has started ticking, that is the last thing I want.
Now I have a dilemma, leave the man I've spent my entire adult life with so far and start fresh, taking the risk I might never settle and have a family.
Or stay, accept the fact that I married him, have some kids and hope he doesn't ruin us again.