i feel so alone. i only have one friend and she doesnt talk or hang out with me anymore. my family doesnt support me and they dont talk to me as much anymore either. i love being alone but at the same time it hurts, i feel so useless. they make jokes about how im fat or a sped kid and it really does hurt my feelings. i feel gross everytime i eat now because of those “jokes”, i cant talk to anyone because they say im faking it because apparently this shit is a “trend” now. i hate it. i hate everything. i really want to selfharm lately, but if i get sent to a mental hospital its going to make it 100x worse, they suck. i just want to sleep all day and avoid everything. i cant do this anymore.