i just want it all to stop, i am over this life of handling with suicidal thoughts for the past 4 years. My mother and brother have seen my self harm and pleaded they will do something, but in the end they never did. I was not sent to seek help and they acted as if nothing happing, as if i mean nothing to them. That was a year ago and from there things have only gotten worse. Everything is going down hill for me and i want it all to end. The only reason i am still here is my fear of hell and whether i will be burning for eternity.