Well, I have nobody else to talk to so here I am. Most of my problems started in around 3rd grade when I was made fun of for hanging out with the special need kids, but that wasn’t nearly the worst parts of my life. In 5th grade my little of friends all betrayed me, told me to kill myself, told me many things I didn’t want to hear, so I started cutting, writing suicide notes, and I never learned anything in school because I was always in the counselors office. It got to 6th grade and everything was okay then besides the constant arguments with my mom, and always getting in trouble with the school because of my friend choices, 7th grade was about the same, 8th grade was hell for me, that year was the year I decided to get homeschooled, lots of things happened with my teachers and friends, lost all of my friend by getting body slammed on the ground by one of them, to the other talking about me when I got homeschooled, I’ve been to therapy twice now, both group, and individual. I’ve tried to kill myself five times now and I still find it the solution, I still cut, I still watch everyone in my family grow happy and they all don’t care about me, I still feel left out, and the only time I ever got pity from them was when they found out I tried to overdose by the therapist, I smoke nic and weed, and I try my best all the time but it’s always the outcome to myself, I’m nothing to everyone even the ones I know love me. Which is just one person, but it feels like none.