I have a really reaaaaaaallly important exams in 9 days. They are on three years of school curriculum. I haven't studied anything yet.They re gonna be decisive on my future school and even on the country i ll live in. I have repeated the year just so i can get a better school than last year, but the problem is even that school is outta my league with how unproductive and unattendung any online school since march. I don't want to disappoint my parents again, they really sacrificed a lot for me to have this second chance, yet i blew it majorly. these days i have had more panic attacks than food. I think i really am hopeless and a failure after alll.