I am just exhausted: exhausted with this world and its incessant demands, exhausted with feelings that I am not allowed to feel or express, exhausted with fighting as the underdog in such an atomised and cold, exclusionary society. I want to see a world where people are honoured rather than demonised for having feelings that legitimately point towards things that are awry and wrong in order to correct them. I want to see a world where our emotions are not weaponry to be played by governments, the class system and the assumption that 'mental health' is a pathology. There is a difference between mental health and emotional health. Emotional health is the degree to which you can integrate feeling into your life to come to terms with things. Mental health is more to do with brain chemistry and the eventual results of this emotional health on your brain and how this feeds back to your emotional wellbeing.There are also people who feel more than others and think more than others but who are demonised for this, because it is almost like they are too much for society. Mental health as an oversimplified term (in my unpopular opinion) is an excuse to play and suppress people's natural feelings and maintain a society of separation, division and intense competition at the expense of overall social wellbeing, our own self-actualisation and our ecological future (where we are aware of the extent to which our lives and societies are ticking time bombs towards ecological destruction). Most of the time mental health is a perfectly natural by-product of living in a society that is invalidating, suppressing and that keeps secrets from us in order to make sure we don't get ahead in life or discover true happiness. By pathologising people's natural righteous injustice and grief from living in such a world, we are merely scapegoating them rather than seeing our feelings are pointers towards building a world built on trust, people and sharing. By suppressing our feelings, we are giving in to the idea that we are just figments of a society, that we are only worthy if we are of the elite class and that we have no life or identity outside our status. I wish there were more people I could connect to just to chat and actually expand beyond this atomised way of things, but it is very difficult. N.b. I am university educated but working in blue-collar jobs because I couldn't pass interviews and am now at the point of 'no return' in terms of being pretty much unemployable and left behind for serious jobs. I am now the 'underclass' in my country and am terrified of my life disappearing because I can't find much sense from others or the world beyond what I see on the internet because I have already been forgotten and don't have much of a chance at the moment of being able to build a stable long-term future.