I hurt myself today. On purpose. I had been clean from self harm for like 1.5 years. I thought I was happy, things seem good. but I'm falling apart again. I'm scared of where this is going to go. I've only told like 4 people ever, 3 of which are no longer part of my life, and telling the last that I relapsed would feel like I'm betraying them. I don't want to fall down this hole but I don't know how to avoid it.