Omg so I don’t know what my problem is, but I liked my 1st cousin. Like liked him. And he was years younger than me. I felt so embarrassed and disgusting but I got over it. I just had to say it so please don’t send hate. I’m sorry. I think part of it might’ve been because I was confused about love. I was 12 and I think what I felt was friendship but got confused. Also, I was sexually abused from age 4 to 7 by my older cousin. I think that also might’ve thrown me off and made me think that was normal. I feel so dumb and gross.