today my mother told me that if I go to my school I will get corona and kill my entire family and it will be all my fault. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what to say. I just curled up under my desk and sobbed until I couldn't breathe because I am a horrible person to want to go back to my school and I'm going to kill my family and it's all my fault. I don't want to kill my family, but I want to be someplace where I have friends who care about me (the school I'm at is the first school I've been to where people genuinely cared about me and wanted me to live) and now I'm stuck in this circle of thoughts about being selfish to killing my family to killing myself in my bathtub and I can't break the cycle. What should I do?