Sup! I am Constantly Dreaming I always have my head in the clouds which sucks And Also I love the sidemen! (Their British Youtubers) And They are so Amazing I Look up to Them Alot But They have millions Of Fans And they have life's! I wanna meet them badly but i can't Do to my Situation and my situation is that Im Abused And a Minor So i can't so jack shit Which sucks GREATLY I Love being me Not Oh i act like this person or this person ect ect I love being my own self i use them as role models also If im Feeling shitty or Horrible I watch Them They make me Laugh and forget about All the horrible things going on in my life aswell ive been wanting to see London Since i was 8 and ive only Recently Found them about 3 Months ago and I think Wreotoshaw and Behzinga (Harry and Ethan) Are Close Like The seem more together? Idk But I feel like something happend and They help each other more In secret But Also Wreotoshaw Is A cuddle bear I love the moments hes Just layin on someone Or Hugging Its Awsome Also JJ Is So Cool! Hes funny and Weird but they're all weird and supportive and thats A reason i Love em So much! And Behzinga Hes A Great role model And Plus He kinda Didnt grow up with a dad that's like me! My dad Is Constantly Leaving or something and Never really taught me anything Aswell as my mom She Kinda Just taught me how to take care of babies Clean Cook and Fix some stuff Thats all other then that she just left me alone all the time and My mom and dad Are not really supportive And They're Abusive Mentally Emotionally and Physically I once missed the bus Because i was up late finishing Homework And I slept in i only had Pjs On And Nothin else so i missed the bus And my Dad Grabbed me by my hair Threw me on the ground And Spit on me Kicked me And Also Gave me a black eye Later i found out while cleaning some injures I had a bruised rib or somethin and It Hurt so bad but my mom made me clean the whole house And Give my 2 Pit bulls Baths And they have to be separate Cuz they try to kill each other So i had to do that also Once I let my mom in About how i dont take my medication Because i come from a Family Of drug addicts and Everytime i get them My Family steals them So I can't take them and i Dont wanna be like them a Druggie and yes i know Im taking medication to help me I understand it helps me But Whenever i see pills I get Paranoid and Scared so i wont and she Promised she wouldnt tell! And Ligit 10 min after She Told my whole family I had a mental breakdown and threw all my Drawings away and I loved them so much And my mom Slapped me And Lit them all on fire So i couldn't get them back and i had a panic attack and was told to shut the fuck up Or ill Get killed so i shut my mouth and couldnt breath and passed out And They didnt care so yeah heres my life rant....