My life is a vicious cycle of pain, betrayal, hurt. I can't ever seem to have a steady good happy life for just a week. I have been pursing to be a nurse since high school I am now 20 and still trying. I took all medical classes high school and the last few weeks I dropped out. I only graduated because I had the required credits. After that I got into another medical program and left after paying thousands of dollars. I am currently in another medical program I hope to finish. I don't know if its too stressful for me, if this is not my career choice or if I just have no motivation. I've looked into plenty trades and career choices but nothing seems to fit me besides something in the medical field. Motivation is something I am always lacking in because every time I feel like I'm okay my world comes crashing down again.