I'm really struggling at the moment. I just feel useless to people and that no one wants me around. I'm ugly and fat and basically a waste of human skin. I have 2 beautiful children and a nice husband who I love and would do anything for but these fears I have make me suffer with anxiety. I feel like I'm not interesting to anyone and sometimes when I speak I get cut off as they don't care. I have things from my past that haunt me but it's never defined my life and my choices but I feel its starting to. I was sexually assaulted by my best friends aged 12 but didn't speak up till I was 14 because I felt to ashamed. This has caused me to question mens agendas. Just generally having a tough time at the moment hoping all this will go away and I'll start to feel myself again soon.