I was explaining to my mum about maybe having a stoma bag because one of my chronic conditions means I have to sit on the toilet 15-20 times a day and it would be easier for me. Then she just goes off on me about trying the powder the gastroenterologist gave me which is like Imodium but I tried it and it made me worse. Shes done this before when I talk to her about my doctor. She’s always on there side not mine. Why can’t anyone be on my side and back me up? it’s my doctors fault I have to wear a permanent catheter now and she knows that but somehow I bought it on myself... how? By telling my doctor that I had bladder problems when she constantly ignored me.. how is that my fault. im honestly done with this world. I have no one in my corner fighting for me. Like when my brother sexually abused me at 7 years old somehow I got slapped by her when I didn’t even know what was wrong. If anyone asks why I am so messed up it’s because of this family, always belittling me, having a go at me. she’s the one spending her carers allowance on alcohol which is suppose to be for me to help me live. I had to buy my own wheelchair which is what carers allowance is for but no I had to buy it with my money. Honestly done with being here. I’m just waiting for 25th March when they can’t find anything wrong with my bladder and then that’s it I’ll be gone so no one will have to treat me like this ever again.