I do not like my life in its entirety. I am not going to write about the things to be grateful for because that just makes me feel worthless. I do not like my life. I am powerless to change it. I am not sure if God hates me or is just plain indifferent to me. I do not know what to do. I do not know how to feel. I do not know anything. I feel hopeless and worthless. I do not feel happy even though I guess i should. I do not know what to do. I keep praying to God. But I do not know if he listens. If he is, please, help me or end me. I beg you.