I dont know if i am still in love with my husband, weve been together for so long but, everytime we speak to each other it turns into an agrunent. I am in love with who i consider to be my best friend, but i cant be with him, not now, maybe not ever. He is the one that brings me joy. I want to tell him but i dont want to frighten him away. I am so lost right now i dont know what to do. I just needed to say this out loud, its been killing me.