Logically I know that what I'm going to say isn't true and I understand that I should think or feel that way, I know how to control my feelings and how to get out of this mentality but sometimes I feel worthless and I feel stupid and really down, I feel like I've got nothing and I'm not good enough.. Nothing is going well at all and I do keep trying and pushing myself..I feel worthless when I wish someone would talk to me .. they ghost me.. And all these feelings are horrible.. It so so suffocating .. I wish I don't have to feel this way.. I wish there is something to neutralise these feelings and cancel these thoughts, someone to make me feel better about myself and to tell me that I am worthy and good enough.. Someone to support me like that ..