the Earth is beautiful. I am sad. i feel like my memory is gone. Maybe it’s the meds or my previous head injuries but I feel like my life is a blur. I feel dumb. I feel helpless. I don’t know who I am anymore and I want an answer but I don’t know what it is. I love the sky and nature and animals but I feel awkward. I feel like I don’t belong. I feel empty yet so dull at the same time. I hope there is a heaven.