My bf doesn’t plan anything anymore with me, but he does with his friends. We live together and told me I’m a nagger, and stupid. He always yells when he gets upset playing games, and tells me and our dog to fuck off when he’s playing. He said he has ADHD and that causes him to be like that. Told me jokingly that I’m a slave, but some days he’s the complete opposite. I’m a sensitive person and have anxiety, so I just ignore him when he’s not being himself. I get panic attacks that turns into seizure when I can no longer control my feelings. I get upset when I always have to clean up after himself. He got demoted for being irresponsible at work, and still doesn’t do well at his job. I try to be as understanding and helpful as I can, but sometimes I feel like it’s just too much. He’s the sweetest man I’ve met and there are days that I feel like he’s just using me. I earn more than he does, so I pay most of the bills, and he just spends his money on unnecessary things, but we spoke about it already. I don’t want him to be someone he’s not, even his mom asked me what I liked about him, I always just chuckle because I don’t know how to explain it. He told me that he’s toxic and sometimes asks me why I’m still with him.