I have been doing business with my dad for 6 years now. I've had a lot of disagreement with his questionable decisions in the past. His financial credit history has impacted my growth as well. I'm not blaming him, I know whatever he did was for a better future for me. He provided me with everything I could have ever asked for. Ever since the markets reopened after the pandemic, I've been under incredible financial stress. My business is struggling to make profits. I am barely able to fulfil my financial commitments of rents, salaries, EMIs. I absolutely hate failing my commitments, I'm under a lot of debt. I'm trying to sell a property to cover the losses, repay my debts and revive my business which isn't proving to be very easy. I'm unable to find people to buy my property. My dad's credit history makes it even harder to avail loans. The financial duress has made me feel the most depressed and despondent I've ever felt. The anxiety of future payments takes up most of my mind everyday. It becomes increasingly hard to get through the day everyday without feeling anxious/depressed. I have considered suicide as well but the fear of my loving family falling apart in the wake of my demise. I cannot think straight, I cannot look forward to better days, I cannot visualise getting out of this mess.I have forgotten what it's like to feel GENUINELY happy or feel relaxed. I wish I wasn't like this.