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I am just tired....tired of wanting to try hard...its not like I am working hard and doing everything I can....its the opposite...I just don't even try...its too difficult but I have dreams and I am hopeful at times...at times means rarely but that makes me happy ...I feel alive but that just vanish too fast..why can't I love myself when I got everything...a great family ....some good friends and privileges...still why ...why is it so difficult to breathe...why is it so difficult to enjoy things...why I am not happy with myself...why am I insecure about everything...why do I become so passive...why can't I be bold or strong..too many why and I know I should be the one who should answer this ....am I being lazy and finding excuses...idk...why can't I be proud of my own achievements...am I always running away when things get different or its honestly because I want different things idk...I feel too lonely at times...but I just don't want to get myself involved ....I don't want someone to notice me...I hate it...I just want to be invisible but why all at the same time I want someone to find me ...like find the real me