Hello from me.
I'm not entirely sure if or when I'll use this service again, but I wanted to try it out. So I guess here goes nothing.
My life is, or was, always fine, some might say it was even good. But this isn't a cheesy, over-the-top depression story. At least I don't want it to be, but I just can't take it anymore. I can't take anything anymore. I feel so sensitive for no apparent reason. My mind is blank half the time and filled to the brim in the other. I can't let go of the past. They did nothing wrong.
I just want to see them again. I don't want to be stuck in this nightmare whilst they're in a dream. I'm in this state where I don't want to die, but I don't want to live either. I've tried praying and reaching out to whoever is watching down on me, if they're watching down on me, but they never respond.
"Why can't you see that I'm in pain?"
"I don't wanna live like this anymore."
"Please. If you're not gonna do anything then just end my suffering."
"I just wanna see him again. Even just one last time before this horrid virus kills us both."
I say these things a lot when I'm alone. I'd never say them in public or to my friends though. My parents can't do anything, my teachers can't do anything, my friends can't do anything.
I have everything, yet I'm still nothing.