Sooooo.... I have been railroaded into parenthood. A couple years back, the other half and I started to pursue adoption. I will hold my hands up and say that I lead the charge. After sitting with the process for a while, before placement happened I tried to pull the plug. I clearly expressed to bot husband, family and friends that this was not for me. At least 40 times I have told my husband I do not want this...... Alas, no one heard me and today there is a 2yo and a 5yo under my roofI feel involved, responsible, burdened, trapped and powerless..I have expressed my discontent and my lack of emotional involvement over and over and over. There are little people involved... They are blameless. Little people who are cute and sweet and I absolutely want no harm to come towards-- But at the same time, I am not emotionally invested either. I am constantly trying to work out away out. I have tried to pull the break on this process over and over and over... However all the social workers and agencies seem to be single minded in forcing the placement (we are both Dr's and relatively well off... They seem to be single minded in pushing for the kids to be with us... They just disregard my reticence) So here we are....... The hell do I do?