It's really weird that I have to admit this but my life is basically nothing
Its not about death
It's just I realized that everything was in my head?
I thought I was close (enough?) To people so that I'd be first on their mind but nope it was in my head
I care about people thinking it was mutual but nope it was just me
Loving and missing someone but that was just one sided ..
I tried to be optimist about the situation but at this point I can't..
I am just nervous about what's coming next and I'm afraid.. and there is no one to understand this fear and there is no one to support and be there for me..
I am all alone and I am lonely ..