My father passed away back in September, I'm very close to both of my parents, but ever since he's been gone I have no connection to my mother it feels. She used to be my best friend, someone I looked up to. Now she's someone who belittles me, makes me feel less and just doesn't care about how I feel or how she makes me feel. Every argument ends in 'this is my house.' 'i won't be disrespected in MY house.' It's supposed to be our house. I'm disrespectful for expressing how I feel. I'm disrespectful for telling her how she makes me feel. It's like constantly talking to a brick wall. I've never felt more detached and disinterested to be around her my entire 23 years. I'm working on bettering myself and saving to leave, but it's not easy. But god when I get out of here I'm gone, for good.