Im a guy, a fricking guy inside, 100% man, but everybody sees me as a fucking girl.Coming from a very traditional Afghan family, its near impossible for me to be more masuculine, like i've alwasy wanted to be.(i've posted this like 4or 5 times, i just need refreshing help so someone reply and help plz, cuz really fucking need it) I'm freaking dying. I go to a girls school yh. im only 14. i've got a girls' body but ive got the mind and thougths of a guy. i am supoused to be a guy. And i could say so much more on that, but yh... it would take too long. The thing is that I'm crushing on this girl so hard. Her name is He**a. Shes Afgan, like me. She freaking turns me on, eevrything about her is sexy. Everything turns me on, from her eye line to her lips to her freaking voice. like im dying, cuz were close freinds, and we've talked about boys together and sex and all that crap yh. The thing that hurts is that shes so beautiful, like she has a raw beauty. She reminds me of a lion, like so ... just u'd have to meet her to understand. Yh so, im ugly yh.. she would never see me that way, shes intrested in real guys, the ones with dicks . the ones that can make her feel good and fuck hard. I dont know like.. im religious aswell. I'm so messed up. I have these imaginary thoughts of all of us going back to our home country, me finding her back there and she sees me as the guy i was always meant to be, the one with the short hair, handsome face, flat chest and muslces and tall. and that she'd marry me. But of course she wont. she cant. Shes got 4 older brothers and sisters that would beat the hack out of me... like no it wont eevr happen. but i cant stop thinking about her. the other day se didnt bring her waterbottle, so she wanted to sky mine. and i let her, she drank form the whole bottle and i havent let go of that bottle since, its with me right now. Then the other day, I went out for the first time , dressed in my brothers clothes. they fit perfectly cuz he's a smaller size. I had my cap , that made my hair lok short. The thing was that my parents were out, and it was jsut me and my grandma at home. she was upstairs and i told her that i'm gona just get some milk form the corner shop, and i did, but dressed as laith. as the guy that i've alwasy meant to be. i binded my chest as hard as i could and it was flat just like i how i've always liked it. Yh, while i just hung round my local centre yh, some girls came up to me and said i was cute, asked my name. We had a conversation, adn i must have been real handsome enough for one of them to ask my number. it felt so freaking good to be taken as a guy. And let me tell u, it was this person called Erina, who gave me some replies in this vigyaa place before that gave me the courage to do this, somehow. Anyways when i came back home, my parents were home already. Luckily they didn't see me in those clothes, and i ran straight upstairs. My heart was thudding so hard, and i got changed into my normal clothes. I felt so good, so fucking sexy good.Then after, yh. When i was putting my big brothers clothes back, he came in the room just then, (he had come home from our cousins' just down the road.) and saw me. i just pretended natural. he asks me waht i was doing with his clothes. i could've said that i had just got them out the dryer and was putting everybody's clothes into thier cuboards, but i jsut couldn't. and i let it all out. i told him how i freaking wanted my share of dick, of masuclinity, of deep voice adn all that shit. i told him waht i had just done. he sat down and just was silent for a moment. he was like in a silent fuming rage. he swore and all, and said that he has a little sis(me) not a little brother, that this all fucking wrong and its jsut a phase. he salmmed the door, i dont know if hes told my paretns yet tho. he might. my lifes becoem so mesed up. but i fell good. i feel truly myself. So some one plz fucking talk to me about my crush and how to get over her or someway to give her some hints. And how i can explain myself to my parents, or if you a guy, explain to me to eevry fucking detail to what its like to have a fucking dick between your legs. i really need someone to talk to so plz, have mercy on my messed up soul.Im desperateeee

Im a guy, a fricking guy inside, 100% man, but everybody sees me as a fucking girl.Coming from a very traditional Afghan family, its near impossible for me to be more masuculine, like i've alwasy wanted to be.(i've posted this like 4or 5 times, i just need refreshing help so someone reply and help plz, cuz really fucking need it)I'm freaking dying. I go to a girls school yh. im only 14. i've got a girls' body but ive got the mind and thougths of a guy. i am supoused to be a guy. And i could say so much more on that, but yh... it would take too long. The thing is that I'm crushing on this girl so hard. Her name is He**a. Shes Afgan, like me. She freaking turns me on, eevrything about her is sexy. Everything turns me on, from her eye line to her lips to her freaking voice. like im dying, cuz were close freinds, and we've talked about boys together and sex and all that crap yh. The thing that hurts is that shes so beautiful, like she has a raw beauty. She reminds me of a lion, like so ... just u'd have to meet her to understand. Yh so, im ugly yh.. she would never see me that way, shes intrested in real guys, the ones with dicks . the ones that can make her feel good and fuck hard. I dont know like.. im religious aswell. I'm so messed up. I have these imaginary thoughts of all of us going back to our home country, me finding her back there and she sees me as the guy i was always meant to be, the one with the short hair, handsome face, flat chest and muslces and tall. and that she'd marry me. But of course she wont. she cant. Shes got 4 older brothers and sisters that would beat the hack out of me... like no it wont eevr happen. but i cant stop thinking about her. the other day se didnt bring her waterbottle, so she wanted to sky mine. and i let her, she drank form the whole bottle and i havent let go of that bottle since, its with me right now.Then the other day, I went out for the first time , dressed in my brothers clothes. they fit perfectly cuz he's a smaller size. I had my cap , that made my hair lok short. The thing was that my parents were out, and it was jsut me and my grandma at home. she was upstairs and i told her that i'm gona just get some milk form the corner shop, and i did, but dressed as laith. as the guy that i've alwasy meant to be. i binded my chest as hard as i could and it was flat just like i how i've always liked it. Yh, while i just hung round my local centre yh, some girls came up to me and said i was cute, asked my name. We had a conversation, adn i must have been real handsome enough for one of them to ask my number. it felt so freaking good to be taken as a guy. And let me tell u, it was this person called Erina, who gave me some replies in this vigyaa place before that gave me the courage to do this, somehow. Anyways when i came back home, my parents were home already. Luckily they didn't see me in those clothes, and i ran straight upstairs. My heart was thudding so hard, and i got changed into my normal clothes. I felt so good, so fucking sexy good.Then after, yh. When i was putting my big brothers clothes back, he came in the room just then, (he had come home from our cousins' just down the road.) and saw me. i just pretended natural. he asks me waht i was doing with his clothes. i could've said that i had just got them out the dryer and was putting everybody's clothes into thier cuboards, but i jsut couldn't. and i let it all out. i told him how i freaking wanted my share of dick, of masuclinity, of deep voice adn all that shit. i told him waht i had just done. he sat down and just was silent for a moment. he was like in a silent fuming rage. he swore and all, and said that he has a little sis(me) not a little brother, that this all fucking wrong and its jsut a phase. he salmmed the door, i dont know if hes told my paretns yet tho. he might. my lifes becoem so mesed up. but i fell good. i feel truly myself.So some one plz fucking talk to me about my crush and how to get over her or someway to give her some hints. And how i can explain myself to my parents, or if you a guy, explain to me to eevry fucking detail to what its like to have a fucking dick between your legs. i really need someone to talk to so plz, have mercy on my messed up soul.Im desperateeee

its good that u are letting urself be more of urself. well abt ur crush try to analyze her body languages and try to give hints but u already said it urself that she like boys so u know u might wanna slow down and distract urself. its normal to have dirty thoughts but dont u think thats a little too much if u just have thoughts abt idk banging her? anyways try to think these instead so that u can stop urself from being attracted to her: imagine u can see her earwax oozing, imagine her in a fight and she shouts stop but no one is actually stopping her so the awk silence is just there.. now did that turn u off? hope this helped u dude

its good that u are letting urself be more of urself. well abt ur crush try to analyze her body languages and try to give hints but u already said it urself that she like boys so u know u might wanna slow down and distract urself. its normal to have dirty thoughts but dont u think thats a little too much if u just have thoughts abt idk banging her? anyways try to think these instead so that u can stop urself from being attracted to her: imagine u can see her earwax oozing, imagine her in a fight and she shouts stop but no one is actually stopping her so the awk silence is just there.. now did that turn u off? hope this helped u dude

Re: FtM, Yo I NEED help, im meant to be a guy, but everyone sees me as a damned girl, even the love of my life.

I m sorry for your suffering. I don't know much about what to do but I do know that since you are so young and thus financially dependent on your parents, it will be hard if you decide to tell them the truth, and it will be harder to find a physical/surgical solution permanently. I do encourage you to have someone that you can always talk to about this, talking helps. Meanwhile, don't tell your brothers or sisters theh may make it worse for you.

I m sorry for your suffering. I don't know much about what to do but I do know that since you are so young and thus financially dependent on your parents, it will be hard if you decide to tell them the truth, and it will be harder to find a physical/surgical solution permanently. I do encourage you to have someone that you can always talk to about this, talking helps. Meanwhile, don't tell your brothers or sisters theh may make it worse for you. 

Brav, thank u for responding. Welp, i am just insanely crushing on this girl so hard that it's impossible for me to reverse. I could imagine everything u just sadi, but like its not turning me "off", like i've had crushes before yh, but this girl is just different. She could make u fall for her with just a look from her beautiful eyes and maybe a random "shut up" that she might say. nothing can turn me off about her, and im going crazy, her body language is confusing. At the same time she could be crushing on me like i am, but at the same time it could just be the influence of my own wishes. Like when were alone sometimes it'll be awkward until i start a conversation. And then sometimes she gets flustered if i say someat to her thats about me wanting to be mroe masculine, like she starts smiling cute flustered smiles , And the only time i've seen her like that is when she talks to ppl she's not that familair with. So idk it could be she likes me, or she actually is uncomfortable with me, but like at the same time, she includes me alot, she very dominant once u get to know her and shes so masculine but at the same time so so very sexily feminine, u gota meet her man to understand, shes lit one of a kind and then sometimes i refer to her as princess, but to even it out i call other girls it too, cuz it might seem a bit weird. idk idk, r there any other signs that i should look for?

Brav, thank u for responding. Welp, i am just insanely crushing on this girl so hard that it's impossible for me to reverse. I could imagine everything u just sadi, but like its not turning me "off", like i've had crushes before yh, but this girl is just different. She could make u fall for her with  just a look from her beautiful eyes and maybe a random "shut up" that she might say. nothing can turn me off about her, and im going crazy, her body language is confusing. At the same time she could be crushing on me like i am, but at the same time it could just be the influence of my own wishes. Like when were alone sometimes it'll be awkward until i start a conversation. And then sometimes she gets flustered if i say someat to her thats about me wanting to be mroe masculine, like she starts smiling cute flustered smiles , And the only time i've seen her like that is when she talks to ppl she's not that familair with. So idk it could be she likes me, or she actually is uncomfortable with me, but like at the same time, she includes me alot, she very dominant once u get to know her and shes so masculine but at the same time so so very sexily feminine, u gota meet her man to understand, shes lit one of a kind and then sometimes i refer to her as princess, but to even it out i call other girls it too, cuz it might seem a bit weird. idk idk, r there any other signs that i should look for?

hey, this is the same person who made u imagine those icky stuff a while ago hahaha. i’m glad that u liked this girl not just because of her body or smth. well uh i guess u might wanna try askin lowkey questions like do u find urself being more open to blah blah or do u like someone and if she asks the question back try saying “nah” fast before inserting you. then look at her reaction if she finds it weird. if she rejects u, just say ur saying “you?” like ur asking who is her crush. u get what i mean? hayst its hard explaining it here but ive never experienced simping so hard for someone like u hahaha i usually wait for their first move to me.

hey, this is the same person who made u imagine those icky stuff a while ago hahaha. i’m glad that u liked this girl not just because of her body or smth. well uh i guess u might wanna try askin lowkey questions like do u find urself being more open to blah blah or do u like someone and if she asks the question back try saying “nah” fast before inserting you. then look at her reaction if she finds it weird. if she rejects u, just say ur saying “you?” like ur asking who is her crush. u get what i mean? hayst its hard explaining it here but ive never experienced simping so hard for someone like u hahaha i usually wait for their first move to me. 