every day im in pure fucking agony. emotionally and physically. i want to kill myself, plain and simple. honestly i dont know why i havent yet. i had three reasons but all of them are disposable and one has already gone away. i know the others will one day too. im not really even sad anymore. im just upset. i dread going to sleep every night because i know that ill wake up and go through everything all over again. no one seems to really care, or maybe im just expecting too much out of others. i have goals i guess, but i wouldnt have to worry about reaching them if i werent alive. im so stressed out. why am i even still here? i feel stuck.