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FUCK

Im a person that values frendships a lot


I know quite a lot of people but I have only 1 friend group where we share interests and have a similar type of humour


But


They all know each other very well, I joined the group a year or 2 after they met


And to this day they have a chat only for them, they never added me


Im too lonely to leave the group but feel horrible for staying cause i feel like they dont like me enough to add me to the chat


I give them lots of gifts and they dont even remember my fucking birthday


FUCK why is it all so fucking hard why can't i have a friend that I could tell every detail of my life without feeling judged


I'm trying so hard!! I do my best to be a good listener and help people, maybe sometimes I lash out at them and thats pretty fucking shit of me but i'm improving


I just want to feel loved, my family kind of dislikes me


the overthinking comes back


fuck shit fuck fuck shit


I deserve better


Or maybe im not good enough


Ill never know.