I honestly feel like trash and life just keeps going down hill, I'm never good at anything, whenever I try to do something and I keep on practicing I don't improve. Whenever it may be an activity or a game basically any task I can't do it right. No matter how hard I try over and over again it always ends up as a big failure. I lost motivation in doing anything and im scared to do something new knowing I'll always fail. I've been friendzoned 4 times already. And when I got my first girlfriend she made me a rebound and still today I can't get over her. I've been molested twice now, got forced to suck my cousins cock and my brother's friend forced me to suck his cock and rape me. I've got no friends, I'm a shut in. I really wish someone would just murder me or hit me with a truck. I hate everything.