Fuck me. Fuck my stupid mind. Fuck every single thing about me.
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
ughhhh I hate it
i just want to be happy
but I cant
if I get help then I’ll get distracted and then climate change will become irreversible and I’d have done nothing to stop it and if I hadn’t already by then (very unlikely) I’ll kill myself and not a person will be sad and everyone and everything on this planet will die
if I try to get help then ... I can’t do that ti my parents
ugh I hate it I just wanna bang my head on the wall but I can’t because someone will hear
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
why can’t I just be happy?
(sorry you had to hear that, I’m just venting)
gonna go get a knife now