It's funny, really. I started off 2019 as a great year, and then I met a girl named Mary. She's great - she was my first online friend, and well, it's cheesy, but I fell for her. It was nice - we dated for about 5 months, and were just looking into plane tickets, since she lives across the world. It was a long process; but along the way, my best friend Cara and I got into a fight. It wasn't just some normal fight, and it lasted a while. It turned out, Mary took Cara's side, and broke up with me because of it Obviously I was banged up about it, and I had ranted to my other friend, Ava (Online). She was so sweet, and kept telling me it was alright, and it made me calm down. Forgot Mary had her password. Everything was fine, until I got a rather hasty apology from Cara. I missed her, so I accepted. (Probably Mary's doing.)Anyways, it's about Christmas time, and Cara is telling me who she likes. Surprise surprise - it's Mary, my ex. Sooo they dated, making me having to be friends with Mary. It was so awkward - until one day Cara said she was in love with me? Hold up - while she was dating Mary? What was this, some cheesy rom-com? It fucked me up, and I just told her it was wrong to do that while dating Mary, and that I didn't feel that way. She said alright, and didn't bring it up again. Fast forward to sometime September, 2020 - (Sorry for the huge time skip lmao, nothing really interesting happened until here) Mary dumped Cara. Now when Mary left me, I was pretty banged as I said, but didn't complain or rant to anyone else. I have a bad habit of keeping things to myself, and bottled up. Thing is, Cara doesn't. She always complained to me, day after day, about how Mary played HER, and how I should feel bad for her. I comforted her of course, but it got annoying after 2 months of constant ranting. So then Cara started to date a whole bunch of other girls, dating some for a month, some for only a few days. (Now it's Christmas, 2020) Cara started to ghost me. I let her, considering she was obviously in her teenage-angst shit, or whatever. Now - something I should mention is I am a girl. This friend group that consisted of me, Mary and Cara, we are all lesbians, minus Mary, who's pan. So obviously when I was dating Mary I had to keep it private, since I'm not out yet. Anyways, it really fucked me up when I got a message from another online friend who I'm close to, a girl named Dea. She was a really nice girl, and we ranted to each other a lot. So it was a surprise when I got a message from her stating - "Stop being a dick to your best friend please <3 and can you not body shame her? That's fucking disgusting. I can't believe someone like you could be such a shit friend. Don't expect me, Cara or Mary to talk to you anymore, lmao." I'm sorry, what?? I haven't even been TALKING to Cara, so how? I asked her for proof, got blocked. This was yesterday. Needless to say; Quarantine kind of fucked me up. I have no one left to talk to - so I came here. My name is Anastasia, and I needed to get this off my chest. Thank you for reading <3.