I have no reason to be sad. No reason at all. I have good friends, an intact family, all my fingers and toes. I go to a good school. I like music. I enjoy making art and writing stories and playing video games. Sometimes I look at the sky and literally lose my breath because the world can be so unendingly, unerringly beautiful.But I feel like I'm drowning. All the time. Every place. I haven't cried in nine years, and yet each moment carries with it an undercurrent of deep, constant sorrow. I can't understand it. What possible reason could I have for knowing sorrow? I'm fine. I smile and I laugh. I get angry and I make jokes. I talk to my friends. They're excellent friends, too; funny and interesting and complex. I have two parents and two siblings and a neat little family unit and many relatives overseas. I have a job. I am not rich, but I am not poor either. Nothing should be making me sad. Nothing. Yes, I have everything I need. And I have no excuse for why it's not enough. Look at this. I have written "I" so many times already, like the world revolves around me. Even this anonymous post on a nondescript website is culpable; it's the tiniest of indulgences, like I'm allowing myself a few moments to acknowledge the invisible and indelible weight I always carry around, but I feel nonetheless guilty for it. Like I'm fetishizing my own sadness. Like a few moments are equivalent to an obsession. Maybe they are. The truth is I don't know why I feel what I feel. I only know I feel too much of it, too often. I've seen sadness described as a crushing emptiness — an aching, echoing hole right in the centre of your chest where it can't be ignored. I wish I was empty. I wish I could feel the wind blowing through a hole in my chest and hear the whistle of it, like a stamp of veracity, like proof that something is indeed wrong. Instead, I am so full. I am bursting at the seams with sorrow. It drags on my insides like a physical thing, draining me of all authenticity when I smile, and laugh, and get angry, and make jokes. It alters everything. It might as well be shooting out of my fingertips, bleeding through my skin, leaving smudges on everything I touch. Even if the tears don't come from my eyes, they are everywhere else. So I do not know why I am sad. I only know that I am. Maybe one day it will get the better of me, but until then I remain awake, perplexed and aching, confused and alone, crying with every remaining grin. 

Sadness is confusing

Dear M/s UGC, I am a student of English Literature pursuing an UG course from BHU and as per my statement to the Education Times, I told them that during my 1st semester exams and my 2nd semester exams I was offered 7 papers each and during my 3rd semester exams I was offered 8 papers, currently our 4th semester exams got cancelled due to a notice regarding precautionary steps during COVID-19 as a preventive measure as we are currently in our intermediate semester and the exam is for the terminal semester students, now during my 5th semester what should I concentrate on to pursue my future goal which is filmmaking and animation? 

The State of My Education

TW - sexual assault I am 18 years old, new to “aldulthood”. I don’t know if this is the same with everyone but apparently turning 18 is seen as a free pass for a lot of things. firstly people just think that you want sex off everyone, I don’t. In fact my verginity was fucking stolen. How is that fair? secondly, my messed up family thinks that I am now old enough to hear all the horrible things that they have all done. My grandfather sexually assaulting my sister, all of them do coke. My mum being a prostitute and also the fact that my other grandad is a cheating cunt, who treats my nan like shit. But just because I and the only one who thinks this is fucking disgusting and speaks up, I get beat the fuck out of, thrown out. I would never kill myself but if I was going to, right now seems like a good time to. I could never leave my younger sister behind. She is my life.

Truth comes out when you’re 18

There were days when I remembered ever so vividly the time where I was riding the bus to home, my head leaning on the glass window pane, watching the view of Never-ending houses, landscape and people...easing the sleepiness and the boredom. It was a late December morning and I was heading home, I scooted away from the man on my side, because of uneasiness. As I look over the window, I have noticed the bus passing by your street and I suddenly remembered you. It had been seven months since I last saw you and we haven't spoken a word even before that. We were never really used at saying hi or even gave a simple wave lest conversing for hours. It was that I was used by your presence that I felt a part of me was lost the moment I've decided to leave home, and you are home.I was overwhelmed by the homesickness I've felt for you that I thought the figure before me was only a dream, but when I blinked several times I saw you...there,in your red basketball Jersey and was about to cross the road. I sat right up and just sat there, looking stupidly at you, missing you...longing for you, unconsciously my tears poured like rain drizzling in the middle of a sunny day. I was not sad, I was overjoyed. For the last months, I haven't seen even a shadow of you. Happy was an understatement that time, I've called my sister while sobbing, and told her I've seen you, she was happy too and I do not know the reason why, because she doesn't approve of you. Until the bus halted, I felt giddy and I can't stop grinning from ear to ear, even though you haven't seen me, I was contented.Up until now you continued to invade my mind with the thought of how are you doing, where are you now, for days. Even my dreams were of you,retelling the past, of how you were always there subtly, the feeling of heat radiating from your shoulders as they bump with mine and when you suddenly held my hand when they were cold as corpse and brought warmth in me.I just remembered you that's all, because I was thinking about you and I dreamt of you. I just kinda...miss you. That's all. 

To Guy I Will Never Forget(I pray)

Everything's going to be alright. Theres always a light even in the darkest of time that light will lead you to your success and happiness just find it. Finding the light os a journey which you should travel and till the destination you'll be the strongest and bravest.ALL THE VERY BEST

Re: Deep down it hurts.

I've been struggling with my depression since many years. I have no one to understand meToday I got in a fight with my mother in morning....she called me miserable and loser. She said I am good for nothing and never did anything in my life for my familyThat broke my heart ,I felt I was stabbed in my heart ....bcz I know what I've been through ....and my family thought my depressive behavior is an excuse not to work.I cried so much that I could not breath at one moment.....I cried and said "maybe if I die you guys would be happy"Thats when my younger brother said "ill give you the rope ,go hang yourself in the bedroom"

Miserable life

reeeeeee i hope i can get someone like him too! you're so lucky bb omg :DD happy for you guys, send out the invitation to your wedding babedamn i wish my crush is like him <333 that is such a cute thing, he's the nicest person i've ever heard of :>

Re: He is so cute

I'm in love with someone I shouldn't be. He has a girlfriend, not married but you know. I'm actually in love. I can't eat or sleep. I can't stop thinking about him.  Everyone else in the world is painted in black and white,  he's the only one in color. His eyes are pools of the perfect blue/ green. His voice is like the secret music of my soul. He's the most phenomenal person I've ever met.  I love him so much I would never make a move because I would never want to make him a cheater. But yearning for him is making me feel sick. My hands shake when I think of running them through his hair.  Sometimes I wonder what his skin smells like, what it would taste like.  He's the most beautiful human being inside and out.  And I can't say any of this to him. And sometimes I feel like its going to kill me. I didn't think I could ever feel like this.  

He's just like an Angel, his skin makes me cry.

Hey I can understand what you are going through I feel you should know yourself if you are afraid of commitment with her or everyone else. If you see yourself in the future with someone but not her than breakup with her it's for your both sake.

Re: I need advice.

I feel it too. I'm always at home for 1 year now and when I talk to my friends sometime in social media it doesn't last and I feel bored so I just watched movies are series that I watched two or three times now. I wish the pandemic to stop because everyday I feel like they just invent the virus to make money (in my opinion HAHAHAHAHAHA)

Re: world : shit

i had amazing lesbian sex with a close friend about 2 months ago. Problem is: we did this on her bloody 1 year anniversary of her boyfriend. The wanker somehow is finding out of other things we have done and she is extremely worried that he will find out. We have been snacking up long before he came round so I don’t feel guilty. My friend and I are in no interest of a relationship or commitment to each other either 

Advice?

So I have a girlfriend and we’ve been going out for nearly 4 months. First time relationship for me. Recently I’ve been thinking a lot and I realise now that there is so little we have in common that I’m scared of the future. Of course I love her, but sometimes I just find it hard for us to connect. She’s also very keen on things like getting married and having kids, which really scared me because she’s rushing very quick to it and I want to take my time. Do I break up with her or try to work something out? My stomach feels awful and I feel so nervous.

I need advice.

It's been 3 months since my dad died. I miss him so much, he was my life and my hero. And one day he was gone, its seems like god gave me a punishment. And my life seems like a massive hurricane now. I'm 17 ,I have  big sister who is 3 years older than me and she is making me feel like I'm a burden to her she treats me like it was my fault that dad is dead. I feel worthless. My dream is to become a lawyer but I guess I have to give it up. I dont know what to do i fear my future i fear life I dont see a future. I fear if god gives me one more punishment I'll be all alone. I wish dad was here. I am just 17 nobody is supporting me in this. I am scared that this time when door bell rings it will be someone to ask for money, when the phone rings it will be someone to ask our address.I dont want to become anyone's burden but I'm still so young and without a degree . It's not my fault that my dad left me early and not gave my finance for my college my sister makes me feel that way. Please dad come back . Please god forgive me for all my sins and bring my dad back .

ITS SEEMS LIKE ITS ALL MY FAULT

hi there, wanderer.i feel so lonely and depressed lately. i can't eat properly. like sometimes i ate over 3 times a day and sometimes only once. i feel like i have no real friends to talk to. my family know nothing about these and i feel so stressed sometimes about world, politic fuckers, coronavirus shit, homework etc and i want these to stop. please help me. i get overwhelmed just thinking about them. sad face.

world : shit

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Re: Anyone knows ?

Imagine that they are animals that can't understand what you say or imagine like they aren't wearning clothes :0:0                           hope you will get what you want                                best of luck mate

Re: Need dating advice

Heyy I am the one who wrote it thank you so much I just ≧ω≦↖(^ω^)↗                                                                                                                                       

Re: Frustrated migraine

       I am a shy male, and have tough time talking to people of the opposite gender that I like. Does anyone have any advice to help me out? I tend to overthink and make myself nervous. Does anyone have some advice to make me more approachable, and increase my chances of finding someone? Please help! I am at the point where I just want to give up, but I know I shouldn't give up. I hate being lonely.

Need dating advice

Soooooo Happy to hear that! It's great that u deleted evrything for once and for all! Umm...I don't know if it's weird but your decision has made me happy though I don't know you...How and why don't ask me...I don't know...Happy for you!

Re: Kimber improvement 😁😁

it has been more than a year now I’ve never been acknowledged always been humiliated by that one person I just see darkness around myself I wish I could let go of this situation but I’m drowned in it badly and it’s just killing me. I just hope everything goes back to normal how things were before . 

Deep down it hurts.

Ерик Ериксън изследва и разработи сценична теория за това как децата растат и развиват психосоциални умения. НивоИмеХарактеристикиЕтап 1Доверието срещу недоверието(бебе)Детето ще се научи на доверие само ако майка му отговаря на дълбоката нужда на детето от внимание и обич.Етап 2 Автономия срещу срам и съмнение(около 3-годишна възраст)Ако изследващото дете получи насърчение в търсене на автономност, то ще се научи на доверие, в противен случай се научава на срам и съмнение.Етап 3Инициатива срещу вина(около 4-годишна възраст)Ако разпитващото дете се насърчава в неговите идеи и игри, то ще придобие увереност или по друг начин ще се почувства виновно за иницииране на нещата.Етап 4Индустрия срещу власт(в училище)Ако бъде насърчено и похвалено от учителите, детето ще увеличи усилията си да учи. Ако винаги бъде критикувано, детето ще се научи да се чувства непълноценно.Етап 5Объркване на идентичност срещу роля(от 12 години)Ако самоличността на детето е била подсилена до пубертета, детето ще се справи добре. Ако не, има страшна криза на идентичността.Етап 6Интимност срещу изолация(около средна възраст)Кризите на идентичността могат да се появят по-късно в живота, ако хората не могат или не се свързват с другите. За да научи, Ериксон говори за предоставянето на децата на „психосоциален мораториум“, където те могат да поемат рискове и да експериментират в безопасност без заплаха от наказание. Това е ключова отговорност на родителите.И какво?Когато работите с деца, полагайте специални грижи за изграждане на доверие и самочувствие. С дисфункционални възрастни (каквито са повечето от нас), разпознайте корените на техните проблеми и помогнете, където можете. Това означава и себе си.

Теория на етапа на развитие на Ериксон

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Anyone knows ?

Hi, I'm sorry to hear that. I too am dealing with a lot right now, I hope you feel better. Even though I'm just another stranger, just know that you have my support 🤗💖 I hope for you the best 💕 Stay safe and be healty 💗

Even I face the same shit, just be unbothered! Tell you're parents if she offends you or insults you in any way. If you're parents don't  believe you just try to stay calm or just directly tell her to stop.

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