I sometimes feel like I have a generational curse. Like, my grandma is going to die alone and at this rate my mom might as well. I am the oldest of my mom's kids and growing up I have struggled with relationships. Most of them lasted 2 months tops. My longest was 2 and a half years but that one also ended badly. I had pretty much given up at that point and resorted to talking to people online. Not really wanting to online date but just needing an escape. I talked to a couple of people but nothing really came of it. And then out of nowhere I found someone who seemed in almost every way perfect. Like, we were so alike it was crazy. The only issue at first being they lived 12 hours away by car. But after weeks of talking I impulsively drove down there to them for just a day. It felt like the most amazing day I had had in a long time. Everything felt wonderful. Our sexual chemistry seemed great. We have been dating for almost two months now and plan to see each other again at the end of October. But recently we've been having some problems. Like, obviously every relationship isn't perfect but sometimes I just feel like shit is too hard. This is where I just feel I am cursed. Like, so many things seem perfect I don't understand why these problems had to happen. All I want is to just find someone to be happy with and to spend my life with and instead I always just get issues after issues. I feel like I am destined to die alone just like my grandma and probably my mom.