Sunday morning started as usual, birds chirping, sun rising, until it took an odd turn, which is the new normal now. The suicidal thoughts hovering over my head like a drone wouldn't stop. And just when i wanted to end my life, I thought i'd call my cousin. I told myself if the call went unanswered I would put an end to it. But she did, and that's why I'm here writing this . But honestly, I still see no reason to live anymore. Suicidal thoughts have been chasing me for months now, this wasn't the first time, and I doubt it'll be the last. So give me, give me one, just one realistic reason to live. Truth be told, I still haven't done it cause the thought of going to hell terrifies me or else I would have ended it when I was 12. So give me another reason why i should live.