I was really depressed and hating myself when out of the blue my cousin appeared at door giving me mangoes. I've been craving mangoes for a while now. Due to circumstances financially and life in general I was not able to get some. I'll take this as a sign that he is telling me to hold on/hang in there a little longer. Because today I stood in front of the blade ready to self mutilate. Thank you God for loving me when I couldn't love myself.