Im ranting , ignore me i guess. not that she'd ever read this.Its so f-ing depressing and sad and heart breaking honestly.. Like how long did you wait.... Did you wait at all. I know it wasnt exactly fair n i don't blame you for moving on but i did try again. I wanted us to work .i really f-ing did. I've waited hoping something would change but nothing did or has. Were not close anymore , If any thing were further then ever. Like i don't understand it , really don't. I never heard anything from you. Smh... I f-ing hate it. Yea sorry for liking you more then i should have. Sorry for holding on to the thought of us working . sorry for intruding in your life. I have to move on .. I can't be alone forever . I can't keep feeling like a crazy person for feeling so strongly about you , for so long , while you felt probably nothing for me. Just a joke , everyone's probably just laughed about it, like im just a joke for loving someone , loving just a friend.. For trying. I thought we'd be something good , really did. Just turned into my worst nightmare. Along with the rest of my life. Im not putting in 200% while you only want to put in 20% , or 0% now i guess. Just like it was completely up to me to fix things or make them work. If they were even fixable or able to work... Like i did something horrible enough to not even talk to me about it. Smh grr. Even now i don't want to move on , i still miss you. But i have too. No closure or anything. I was really nice to you , i didn't deserve that. Like i shouldnt have got so sad about it but , in reverse i would have made sure you were ok. Me i dwelled about it for what feels like forever now lost, job , friends , time , health . Thats not your fault but , i never thought in a million years you would of left me the way i was when you did. Apparently im a bad judge of character. So im going to try to move on now.Like you already did. Goodbye , Not that you probably care.