My one wish is for them to not be affected by me. I want them to ignore me and believe I’m so untrustworthy they shouldn’t even bother. It’s probably weird to wish this, but I want them to see me as the terrible person I feel I am. I do not believe I’m good at the core. I’m not worthy of anything in my life. I deserve to be treated like a tool. I haven’t done anything for them and only act on my own. I do this to myself so show no mercy on me. I’m a bitch. A selfish, entitled bitch who trusts no one other than herself. And when I find I can’t even trust myself, it just further proves why I should be exempt from all kindness. So put me in my place. Keep pleading your boundaries so I can adjust myself and never have to burden anyone again. I’m a nuisance and an idiot.